When you're just simply in love.I believe he's my MAGIC!

I am so madly, ridiculously, incredibly in love with this boy. He makes me smile and laugh like shit like no boy ever has in my entire life. I cried once (yes i know ==')because I feel so blessed to have him in my life.
The thing is,he live an hour drive away from me from Monday until Friday. Thats like 70% of a week not being near him. And, frankly, it sucks. It really does. But you know what? The fact is, it’s not the distance I care about, it’s the LOVE. That’s all that matters. I can’t fix the distance right now,since Im still struggling to finish up my 2 years as a sixth former.So I try not to worry about it. The only thing to focus on is how much he loves me, and how much I love him.

And the best part? It’s real, conscious love. It’s not that like “oh em gee, he is perfectt!!!!” Never. We get in fights, we have our problems and our doubts. He probably ticks me off more than most people do with the 'NEVERMIND' attitude and when he gives me that pissed off look. But that’s how I know it’s true. Even after all of that shit we’ve gone through, I still love him. And it doesn’t feel forced saying that either. I never have the doubt of “I’m getting caught up in myself.” This love I have for him is everywhere. It’s in my heart and my head. It’s in my body. It is in every single breath I take and every blink I make.

This may be one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done in my life - but oh GOD, it’s worth it. When its with him. He makes my life more wonderful than ever.

I love you and what you do :) whatever you are,as long as you are who you are. You dont have to have a body like Jacob Black's to make me crazy over you,cause I already am.Its someone who's inside you that I fell hardcorely for.

I am hands down, no doubt about it - Completely in love with you dearly, Hazmie.

and No,Im so not ready to leave KB and go to school all over again. Im gonna miss you like hell again :(

I just don' t feel like sleeping just yet.

I think todays' gonna be another sleepless night for me. We shall see. I wanna blog anyways,I owe mr blogger.pity him being neglected and ditched halfway for numerous times.

How's life for you guys? any good?bad?

I want money. I wanna have lots of cash in my pocket.and do whatever I wanna do with no one stopping me to. Living in my own little bubble,enjoying my OWN life. Its only a dream and never gonna be a reality. Do you wanna know why?

at my age now,i have the energy to explore things and ready for some adventure,my body is all wired up to any circumstances and would,I think,withstand at its best. Unfortunately,no cash.

then when I have the cash and working,I would not have the 'time' to travel and yadaa yadaa,

when im all wrinkled and saggy skinned,I dont have the energy despite having both time and money.

See,you get what I mean now? It'll always be a DREAM.



and oh,Im going to be the awesome-est teacher ever. GTG captain.

How I wish I was one.



xx,
AFIY37.

To my dearest beautiful mother,

I know my birthday is months away.6 months to be exact.But is there any chance I can grant my present sooner than that? I would behave,I promise.I would do my chores. I would do all the things that you ask me to.Its just this one small cute lil thing that Ive been longing for quite some time now.So,please mom? You're pretty :D heeee ;)

ummm,perhaps an UKELELE?

or maybe a Banjo!! :D
Thanks a lot mom. Your daughter loves you.

SSSSSSSSSSSSSS SS SSSS SSSPENNNDET!! eh salah,splendid! :D You have to adore him! I tell you.

Ive been itching to update my blog for the past few days but I just don't have enough will to do it. Er,my laziness level is getting higher. There's so much I wanna type but I find it extremely hard to put them into words and magically key them in. There's so much going on with my surrounding, so many things nagging my mind that I wanna share. But I just DONT KNOW HOW.or more specifically. I don't really know and quite remember WHAT is it.My brain is malfunction-ing eh.

Ahh,I wanna learn how to be angry. I do get angry at times(not really that often), but showing them isnt one of my specialities.Im not that good at it and it sucks (perfectionist much?) It does, I believe a necessity in life to know how to be angry,pissed, that's when people will respect you and know their limits or boundaries and take you seriously and not just for granted.How would you expect to lead someone when they don't give a damn about taking your orders seriously?

I know I'm right. Innit?

So anyways, RAMADHAN is here! happy fasting everyone!

with that I wonder why,If you translate it to malay,we say it as 'SELAMAT BERPUASA' right?why isnt it 'safe fasting'?

blargh. nonsense.

later ;)

I need to clear my mind and do something.

and oh,my brother got married last June. congratulations! :D lagging eh fiy.

Im just reposting this. This is need I say so freaking TRUE! yes,I agree.Completely.


1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the football before helping around the house.

3. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don’t Do It!

4. A Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer quickly to No 9 for the meaning of nothing.)

5. That’s Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That’s okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

6. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you’re welcome. (I want to add a clause here - This is true, unless she says ‘Thanks a lot’, which is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say ‘you’re welcome’ - that will bring on No. 7).

7. Whatever: Is a woman’s way of saying, “F— YOU!”

8. Don’t worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking ‘What’s wrong?’ For the woman’s response refer to No. 4.

9. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in “Fine”.